When the key becomes a weight

When I got my first car, I was in my mid-twenties. I didn’t understand how the key turned in an ignition made the car start, I just knew it did. And then I had my keychain, and with this keychain, I soon had more keys to add to it.  The more keys I had, the more responsibility I had. Before I knew what happened, I had a bunch of keys on a little ring.

Then I had someone always telling me about the importance of not carrying so many keys on one keyring. I didn’t fully understand until one day I started to have ignition trouble. Then before I knew it I had trouble getting my key to work. It was all because it was carrying more weight than it was intending to carry.

All my life, I have heard that I am the key to so many things. What happens when the key becomes the weight? I don’t ever write stuff that I don’t know about or going through. So, here I am. I am having to learn the hard way, one more time.

What happens when the key becomes a weight?

I have spent my whole life being the peace maker and the peace keeper, so what happens now? the person that always tried to keep peace, is now in the position of truth teller and the problem is … instead of being a key, I have become a weight. Instead, those who look to me for guidance are looking to me to save the world, more specifically, their world. And I have found out that I am not able to do so. The only one who can do that is Jesus, and when I am not able to do as they have come to expect they fall. I feel as if I have become a stumbling block and that has never been my intention.

My heart is breaking, because even though I have only tried to save my family and countless others from the hurt I experienced, I have become the enabler. I enabled them to be too soft hearted, to put others before their own families. And that is not right. I enabled others to run over me, like I am a rug for the sole purpose of wiping feet on. I have showed them that it was alright to coward down instead of facing responsibility. Then the question that needs to be answered is, “What Next?”

Just as Atlas was carrying the world upon his shoulders, we have the tendency to do the same thing. It’s just that we were never created to do so, just as Atlas was never created to carry the weight of the world on his shoulders. Sure, lots of people think that those who do carry such weight are strong individuals, but the truth is no, they are not. Carrying such weight is actually a punishment. A self imposed punishment. Only God is God, we are not. We are not created to carry the weight of other people or their world. It is time to give God back what truly belongs to Him, no matter how much it hurts.